the gift of words

there is something to be said about being able to pour out feelings onto paper or on a screen and be able to put yourself somewhere else.  i love manipulating the way i think to put myself in someone elses shoes. right now, i feel as though God is telling me to write a book as inspiration for young women.  it is such a crazy thing, but for years now i have had this on my heart. and finally it is coming together. praise God!

the situations in my life have lead me to this point, and i am so thankful for them so that someday i can share them with others.

and the truth shall set you free...

yes, despite the fact that i think the title of this is utterly ridiculous, there is justification in that statement.  in this stage in my life, i desire the truth. the truth in how people feel, the truth in what is going on in other's lives, and the world.  that raw, almost unacceptable truth excites me.  the thought of being completely honest with those around me makes me feel free - the feeling that you are being honest and broken to the world around you.  broken in a way that is freeing, not hindering. freeing in the sense that others know exactly who you are and what you stand for without having to question.  if only this truth could exist all the time...

love one another

it sounds so simple doesn't it. love your neighbor as yourself, love your enemies, and love those around you. such straightforward statement, but do we always obey God's simple command?
i know i don't all the time, if i'm really honest. it is so difficult to love that person who hurt you, or the driver who just cut you off, or the friend who drives you crazy. the reality is though, we are called to love everyone. first loving god, and then loving those around us.

a blessing worth sharing

these past few weeks i have really been thinking about the idea that i am not perfect. not in a depressing way but in a libertaing way. i can't expect myself to always be thinking positive, happy things, and i know at some point i will say something i regret. i think i'm finally getting to the point where i can accept that. for so long i would beat myself up and get really upset with my actions/thoughts and be seriously reflective, and depending on the situation i think that is totally imperitive. but right now, i am just thankful for the blessing of God's love. no matter what i do, God still loves me, and He always will. 

i feel my responsibility is to always be transparent and share that i am not perfect. i have flaws, and i always will! but instead of trying to constantly fix them myself, i need to leave it to God.  He is the only one who can truly change me. i'm not talking about superficial things, i am talking about my character, my soul, my inner being.

my daily existence is for God alone, and even though i forget that sometimes, it is the truth, and it always will be. with out God i could not do anything. nothing. and by all means for the wonderful things God has blessed me with i only have God to thank. not my talent, not the connections i have, but God. for He places me where He desires me to be.